It’s very difficult for me to make decisions, especially if there is money involved. This summer I got my first job, and since then, I’ve had a decent amount of money building in my savings. The problem is, when I want to spend it, I have no idea what to get or how to spend it. I’m pretty much terrified of spending any amount of money because I finally know how hard people have to work to get their hands on some.

Another thing I just realized is that I’m probibily clueless as to what I want to buy because the greatest things in life are free. I’d like to have companionship. I’d love to fall in love, and I’d love to stop cutting and to have a great self esteem. Basically what I want most is all the goals on my list here at 43 things, and I just realized that each one of them lacks a price tag.